in the first post I promised you a few chapters from my new novel, Memoria. Today I post the first one.
When they learn to erase our memories...
When we dismiss violence and deceit as things of the past...
When wars become history we can't remember...
One man will rise against the new order!
Because he remembers who he truly is.
When they learn to erase our memories...
When we dismiss violence and deceit as things of the past...
When wars become history we can't remember...
One man will rise against the new order!
Because he remembers who he truly is.
MEMORIA
A Corporation of Lies
The author would like to express his sincere
appreciation to Tais Khulish, Yulian Zagorodny
and Sergei Grushko for their wealth of advice.
Frank didn't like the cab the moment he saw it.
The ancient Ford Victoria had tinted windows, a rusty rear fender, and a
massive brush guard mounted on the bumper. Frank had a bad feeling about it.
The car raised questions. First, what cab company would keep this rust bucket
in their fleet? Second, what kind of taxi driver would so brazenly
cold-shoulder his fellow cabbies? He'd pulled out of the cab line that
stretched all the way to the airport exit, cutting off the car that had already
started for Frank. Brakes screeching, the cab came to a halt by the curb.
The driver rolled down his window and yelled at Frank, his voice drowned
out by an airbus landing in La Guardia. The plane's shadow darkened the road and
the cars underneath. It crossed the faces of people waiting on the sidewalk,
brushed the glass façade of a newly restored building and fleeted away.
"What's there to think about? I'll do it for half the fare!"
Frank heard once the whine of the jet's engine subsided.
He stepped toward the car, opened the door and looked inside, wincing at
the smell of the leather upholstery. An unpleasant face looked back at him, its
cheekbones high and eyes deeply set. Smooth skin was drawn tight over the man's
skull, and a thick white scar ran from his right temple to the back of his
head. It gave Frank the impression that the bully had slapped on some makeup
before pulling in at the terminal exit.
Having said that... Frank had another look. The man's skin, although perfectly
natural, looked too smooth to be real. What the hell? Judging by his license
propped up against the dashboard, the driver wasn't even forty: not a bad age
to start growing a bald patch, but way too early to lose all of one's facial
hair.
"Get in," the baldie snapped.
Frank had another look at him and stepped back.
"I said, jump in," repeated the driver.
A spot of light fell on his face, causing the man's pupils to constrict.
He looked up at the road in front of him, and Frank gave up his initial impression
of the driver being a spaced-out junkie.
Behind Frank's back, unhappy voices tried to hurry the line along.
Another cab pulled up by the sidewalk, causing the whole line of cars that
snaked around the terminal's perimeter to edge forward.
"Just move it!" the driver croaked through his teeth, as if he
had a cold.
He stuck out a sharp chin and turned in his leather seat. The cab behind
him tooted and pulled too close, locking his bumper. Its front door swung open,
letting out an indignant middle-aged heavyweight with a fat moustache.
The baldie tutted, annoyed, turned his smooth face to Frank and,
unexpectedly, lunged across the cab as if he wanted to grab Frank's hand and
drag him inside.
"You piece of—" the driver began, but Frank had already slammed
the door shut, barely missing the man's fingers.
He looked around him at the people waiting, mumbled something about
giving up his turn and headed for the mustached man's vehicle.
"I'll go with you, if it's okay."
In all honesty, he should have done something about the bald driver. He
could have taken the cab, had the driver take him to the nearest police station
and made a statement. Then it would be up to them to look into the suspicious
cabbie. But Frank couldn't have gotten into the other cab even if he’d wanted
to, because its inside was all done up in leather. And Frank was allergic to
leather, to the point where a mere whiff of it made his eyes water and his nose
run.
"Hey, get lost!" Frank heard the bald one's hoarse voice
behind his back. He turned around.
"Get away, you!" The bald driver pushed aside a passenger who
was trying to load his suitcase into the trunk." He waved to Frank.
"It's your turn, ain't it?"
Frank chose to ignore him. The angry passenger picked up his suitcase
and mumbled something. The bald driver slammed his fist into the man's
shoulder. The crowd ouched and stepped back.
"I think I'm gonna teach him a lesson," the mustached
heavyweight said.
"Don't bother," Frank said to him and added out loud,
"I'll take care of it. I can always report him if I want to."
He marked down the Ford's plates and the company's logo and phone
numbers on the trunk. Then he inspected the other cab's upholstery, got in and
gave the driver his West Side address.
Frank was determined to let the bald man's bosses know about this. His
poor conduct shouldn't be tolerated. Nor should Frank himself head for Memoria
in order to erase the unpleasant incident from his mind. The bully had to get
his comeuppance: be punished, demoted, fired — let him take his pick.
Of course, the man could always go to Memoria himself and erase the
memories of his dismissal and the airport incident that had caused it. But it
wouldn't help him much: his name would be blacklisted by all cab companies'
databases, or maybe even the NY police department files. That would be more
than enough. The La Guardia pig would never be able to appear in public again;
he'd lose his driver's license, and no amount of Memoria wipe would help it. He
could erase his memories every day if he wanted to, but every time the bald son
of a bitch tried to get a job, the incident would come up until the day the
sanction was lifted.
With a smirk, Frank reached for the cell phone in his pocket. After a
brief hesitation — whom to call first? — he dialed his home number. Wouldn't it
be wonderful if Kathleen had remembered his arrival and was now waiting for him
there?
The phone started ringing. Theirs was a strange relationship indeed,
Kathleen’s and his, nothing normal about it. Frank shifted the phone to the
other hand and leaned back. High time they sat and talked about it. He needed
to finally know her full name, her cell phone number, and have some idea of her
job and address. Asking about her parents would be a good thing, too. Kathleen
was an intelligent and educated girl, all designer clothes and sports cars, but
she'd never shown off or spoken about herself. You couldn't expect a successful
lawyer like himself, a government advisor, to keep dating a girl he'd met six months
ago at some Mayoral event without even knowing her full name.
Frank tried to remember when exactly he'd given her the key to his
place... Was it their second date? Third? Come to think of it, it had been her
idea to begin with. Pretty irrelevant, but still, they had to talk it all over.
Frank didn't look forward to falling victim to a jealous husband or anything
like that, but better safe than sorry. In the light of his position, and
especially his potential promotion to a post in the economics department, it
wouldn't be a good idea to take his relationships lightly. So he needed to
weigh up all the pros and cons and approach their future discussion in some
seriousness. He had to practice what he was going to say and how he'd say it —
his arguments, his body language... Then they'd decide where their relationship
could go from there.
Under the gloomy sky, Queens' squatty buildings flashed past the cab
window. Shame if it was going to rain: he'd been looking forward to a breath of
fresh air. Provided Kathleen picked up. Provided nothing had come up to keep
him from seeing her.
The phone kept ringing. What a pain. It looked like he would have to
e-mail her instead. He had no other way of contacting her. Normally, she
received his e-mails and either came whenever she saw fit, or wrote back
setting a date.
Her voice echoed in the receiver.
"Hello? Frank?" She sounded hoarse and nervous, breathing in
short fits, and sniffling.
"Oh, hi," he said. "You okay? I thought you'd given up on
me."
"I'm fine, thanks," she sighed.
Frank's heart missed a beat. Something had to be wrong. "You
sure?"
"Yeah. I got soaked in the rain so I'm not feeling very well,
sorry. You'd better tell me how it went in Washington DC."
Her voice was softer now and her breathing, more even.
Frank glanced at the driver. You couldn't tell what he was thinking: no
reaction was evident on the back of his head, and the part of the wide face
seen in the rear-view mirror didn't betray any emotion, either. He kept his
eyes on the road, steering with one hand and stroking his moustache with the
other.
"It didn't go well, I'm afraid," Frank said. "Not for us,
anyway. The talks have been rescheduled."
"So what's so bad about that?" Kathleen's voice asked, caring
and sweet.
She was good at it. You could trust her to find the right words of
support when a man could use some. She knew how to strike the right note in a
conversation, ignoring her own problems.
"Just my future... My career, and this promotion, too... I've been
laying the ground for this deal for a long time... too long, in fact. Now it's
back to square one."
"I don't think so! It wasn't your fault that the talks didn't go
through, was it?"
"No, it wasn't." Frank could almost see Kathleen's foxy smile
and, unconsciously, his lips started to form into a smile, too. "I've no
idea how it happened..."
"So you see! Your career is in no danger."
Her words soothed him a little. Frank had even forgotten about the bald
cab driver, let alone the failed talks. Kathleen was the best pill ever. Even
her voice sounded soft and musical.
"Frank, I miss you. Please come soon."
In his mind, he saw her lying on their king-size bed in her designer
lace underwear — the girl wouldn't wear anything less, or at least he'd never
witnessed it. Her groomed skin glowed golden against snow-white sheets; the
dark lace teased, promising passion and pleasure.
He choked, swallowed and felt his crotch bulge.
"I will. I'm coming now," he croaked.
"Please do," she paused. "Oh, and this old lady next
door, she dropped in..."
"Mrs. Fletcher? What did she want?"
"She still can't get the hang of her remote. She needs help to set
up the cable channels."
"Did you do it for her?"
"No. I didn't let her in. She didn't seem too eager to see me,
anyway. She said, she'd better wait for you to come back."
"Looks like I'll have to pay her a visit."
"Just make sure you pay me a visit first."
He got the hint in her voice. "Sure."
She hung up. Frank lingered for a couple of seconds, then slowly exhaled
and turned to the window.
They'd already left the Queens' neighborhood behind. The cab was
crossing Queensboro Bridge. To their left, barely half a mile away, rose
Manhattan. If traffic permitted, he'd be there in minutes. Along the East River
bank, towers stood in ruins; their burned-out, bomb-smashed skeletons crowded
the ocean shore, black squares gaping where windows had been.
The only memory of the city war that had ravaged the center of New York.
Try and erase this out of the memories of millions.
They hadn't tried to. Yet.
From afar, the concrete-and-glass stumps looked as if they could fold
any moment like card houses and then slide down the shore into the ocean at the
slightest poke. And once their remnants were done with, you'd be able to see
the towers of the New Financial Borough in the process of construction. There,
the enormous edifice of Memoria HQ had already arisen: the corporation that had
stopped the bloodshed thirty years back. It was Memoria that had given people
hope and a sense of security. Had it not been for Memoria, the whole Eastern
shore from Canada to the Gulf of Mexico would still be engulfed in flames,
fighting the resources war.
Bellville's army — migrants from Texas, New Mexico and other Western
states — had wanted to secure their own grasp on the country. But they had lost
the oil war. Jacque Bellville himself had been tried and executed in
Washington. His entourage had fled abroad. Those of their combatants who had
failed to escape had been locked in migrant camps, stripped of their right to
vote and subjected to round-the-clock monitoring through CCTV cameras and the
personal electronic bracelets that Memoria had enforced on the entire
population.
Frank's gaze followed the enormous orange spot of Memoria's flag
fluttering over the corporation's tower.
"Jesus. Things seem to be improving much faster in Washington. Most
of their buildings are already restored. The Capitol building is as good as
new. Memoria branches are mushrooming on every corner. And there aren't so many
migrants left there, you know, most have already gotten their citizen
status."
The cabbie braked at a red light, turned round with a smirk and showed
Frank his electronic bracelet. An orange light flashed on the man's right wrist
which meant that he'd fought for his citizenship in General Hopper's squads.
Frank lowered his eyes, embarrassed. His own bracelet was flashing with
a little green light which meant that he'd been born after the war. His own
citizenship was an automatic after-war privilege.
"You don't know how lucky you are, kid," The cabbie clasped
the steering wheel and moved off on the light turning green. "Having a
house, a job — a girl..." He glanced at Frank through the rear-view
mirror, grinned and added in his strong, low voice, "You never had to lose
your friends or family."
"But why—" Frank stopped short.
It had been a long time since he'd had a chance to talk to a veteran
who'd chosen to preserve his war memories. All the old people he knew — those who still remembered the battles
between Hopper and Bellville — had died since, or had Memoria erase their
recollections. Somewhere in this city lived Frank's old boxing coach. Like so
many others, he too must have visited one of the corporation's numerous
branches, having forgotten the war and with it, his old students. Frank wasn't
even sure the man still lived here — he could have relocated from New York for
all Frank knew. His coach used to talk a lot about freedom, the word acquiring
many new meanings through his interpretation. In the young Frank's eyes, he was
the wisest man that ever lived, his guru and his role model.
How long had it been since Frank had seen him last? Had to be nearly a
decade. Occasional phone calls and seasonal greetings didn't count. He
absolutely had to see him. Make him meet Kathleen, maybe...
Frank rubbed his face hard and interlocked his fingers. Wasn't he a
jerk, after all? How could he forget the man who was, in fact, his second
father? What if the man failed to remember him?
"Why what?" the ageing cabbie squinted in the rear-view
mirror. "Why won't I get rid of my past?"
Frank nodded and unclasped his fingers.
"When half the civilian population happily erase their memories,
apparently content with living below the bread line," the veteran looked
back to the road, "when I live next door to a migrant camp packed with
those motherfuckers..." he cut himself short, locked his hands on the
steering wheel and hunched over it, tucking his head into his wrestler's
shoulders, wide and sloping.
Well, well, well... Frank leaned against the door keeping an eye on the
cabbie and wondering what this sudden candor could mean and whether the cabbie
was indeed candid and not demented. The latter seemed more likely. Success is
never blamed, so the victors in that war guarded their presidentially granted
right to preserve their memories. They didn't have to visit Memoria three times
a year, like all the others had, and the recollections of the past war remained
entirely their own business.
Still, the old veteran had a point: landing a well-paid job these days
took a lot of luck. Having a place to live, a family and children was taking on
quite a strain. He really shouldn't lose Kathleen. He should try and talk to
her, maybe suggest moving in together — and why not for keeps?
For a split second, he wanted to stick to the status quo: what was the
point in trying to dig up her past if they might not share a future? But today,
it was different. Today, things seemed to fall into a pattern. He hadn't fallen
for the bullying cabbie's abuse, he'd remembered his old boxing coach, he'd
realized that he loved Kathleen and worked up the courage to propose... Yes,
loved was the right word.
Frank couldn't help smiling.
"Here we are, kid," The cabbie pointed at the meter.
"Would you mind waiting a bit?" Frank reached into his pocket
for his wallet. "Ten, fifteen minutes? I'll go get my girlfriend," He
handed the man his fare.
"No problem, kid," The mustached face softened. The man ran
his thick strong fingers over his moustache and added, "I suggest you pay
Memoria a visit, too."
Frank pursed his lips waiting for him to continue. The cabbie shook his
head,
"Don't give me all that about you having already done it," he
reached between the seats, smoothed out Frank's creased coat lapel and patted
him on the shoulder. "Not a good idea to ignore your duty. You know you've
got to visit them three times a year. They run a free promotion now, too: you
might still make it if you don't put it off for too long. Now off you go! I'll
wait for you right here."
Frank scrambled out of the cab and wrapped his coat tighter around his
body. Strange man, this veteran. He seemed to be able to read Frank's mind.
The first raindrops hit the sidewalk. Frank glanced up at the stormy
clouds thickening in the dirt-gray sky and hurried inside the lobby of his
apartment building. He couldn't make it past the entrance: the hallway was
blocked by the backs of newspapermen, TV reporters and photographers busy
setting up their cameras and lighting.
They crowded into the lobby blocking out the reception desk. Frank tried
to bypass them through a narrow opening to their left. When he finally made it
to the desk, the doorman produced two days' back mail and suggested he hurried
to the elevators if he didn't want to have to take the stairs: the lobby was
about to close for a press conference.
Frank was just about to ask him what all that media fuss was about and
who called the press conference, but two media men complete with a camera and
the ID badges of an international news channel beat him to it and demanded the
doorman's attention. After a hesitant wait, Frank looked at the media crowd. It
had perked up, and Frank hurried to the elevators. He'd find out what it was
all about later. Upstairs, Kathleen was waiting and he couldn't think of much
else but her.
When he left the elevator, he saw that his front door was slightly ajar.
His first thought was about old Mrs. Fletcher next door: more than likely,
she'd called on him again and Kathleen must have helped her to set up the cable
remote. The poor old bag couldn't live without her TV, applying for every talk
show and dreaming of her fifteen minutes of fame.
Frank entered the hall and removed his coat. Kathleen's purse was
missing from the shelf under the coat-rack mirror where she always left it. In its
place, he found a note: "Kitchen".
A puzzled Frank forgot to close the front door and moved along the
corridor, taking off his jacket. He turned to the right and entered the
kitchen. On the kitchen table sat a bottle of red wine and two glasses.
Frank smiled. This was so unlike Kathleen. He hung his jacket on a chair
and took a corkscrew out of the drawer. Apparently, their restaurant date would
have to wait. Same went for the cabbie. Kathleen was easily aroused, fiery in
bed, and she climaxed quickly. He'd make her groan with exhaustion as she readied
to come, and then—
He pulled the cork out and tilted the bottle. The red bubbly warbled in
the glass.
Then she would get ready — shower, makeup, whatever — while he went
downstairs and asked the cabbie if he could wait a bit longer than planned.
Frank left the bottle on the table, lifted the full glasses and headed
for the bedroom. His hands trembled slightly with arousal. He stopped in front
of the door and took a swig. Excellent wine. He raised the glass against the
light, admiring the bubbles coming to the surface; kicked the door open and
entered.
Kathleen lay on the king-size bed in her lacy lingerie and stockings,
her arms spread wide. The electronic bracelet was missing from her right hand.
Her raven-black curls tumbled across the pillow, her head turned to the
doorway. Her
glassy dead eyes stared at Frank.
For a second or two he stood there staring at the girl, unable to take
it in, the wine glasses in his hands. His ears were blocked, his throat, tight.
Finally, with a whimper, he rushed to the bed. The wine went all over his shirt
and the sheets. He dropped the glasses, lifted Kathleen's head and looked into
her eyes, praying for her to blink and say, hi there! But it didn't happen.
She had a tie wrapped around her throat — her own gift to Frank before
he'd left for Washington. The pale skin under the tie showed a thin blue
stripe.
She'd been strangled.
When? Why? By whom?
Something rustled behind his back. Frank turned round. Mrs. Fletcher
stood in the doorway, the cable remote in hand, squinting nearsightedly. After
a second, her eyes widened, filling with terror.
She must have thought she'd understood — but she misunderstood when she
saw Kathleen's body and the red spots on Frank's shirt and the bedclothes. She
must have thought it was blood, but what difference did it make now? Frank
lifted his hand, and his wine-spotted fingers trembled, betraying his
desperation. He opened his mouth and looked at Kathleen. No difference whatsoever. She was dead for good.
When he turned back, Mrs. Fletcher was already gone. Screaming her head
off, she shuffled along the corridor, hurrying away.
Frank collapsed on the edge of the bed, lifted the radiophone off the
bedside table and dialed 911.
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